the wrong VERION of ME! in the WRONG TIME!

There is 2 VERSION of ME...

one is the STRONG ME..
and
one is the WEAK ME....

the STRONG ME....
is a very strong guy.....
well.. maybe you cant use the word 'tough' to describe me,
but is really strong.
HARDWORKING, SMART, and sometimes a little bit HARD.
SOCIABLE, HIGH SELF-ESTEEM and also CHARISMATIC!
Love the world,
Hyper-ACTIVE.
INDEPENDENT!
When he feels lonely, he will find somebody or new friends just in 5 seconds!
ROCKS! (dun hope for RNB and HIP HOP)
only allowed VICTORY...
LOSER?
FUCK YOU!

now......
on the other side....

the WEAK ME....
is a very very very WEAK person.
EMO-EMO-EMOTIONAL LOOSE CONTROL all the time.
LOST... in TOKYO? nah... i dunno.. just lost....
LAZY, HATER, and COMPLAINTS.
Very bad in socializing with people,
very low charismatic....
Reject to makes friend,
Reject the world,
Hate the world,
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!....

Well, so people, as you can see..
the STRONG ME, and the WEAK ME is totally 2 different person, 2 different soul, but sharing the same body.... my body......wat a curse! .....

Degree life,
is a very very very tough life,
plus,
my course is extraordinary difficulty course.

Well, in the orientation week and also the starting week,
THE STRONG ME is taking control everything.
and he did a very very very good performance.....
WELL DONE!

BUT...
just...
this week..
few days ago...
THE STRONG ME suddenly left, and THE WEAK ME taking control of my body right now.....
sigh.......
now... i really... dunno wat happen...
i mean..
i don't want to be what happen when i am in foundatino Y1S1...
emo all the time,
skipping class all the time,
HATES anybody.....

But,
now i am really like this...
suddenly, without a reason.......

What should i do??

(P/S: Yesterday, i just announce and also declare something about myself to 2 of my new best friends, which i used to not to tell anyone anymore besides my SECONDARY BUDDY. I don't know why i just tell them like this, just feeling useless right now........I do really scare that they are afraid of me right now......... This is why i ended up in din go anywhere, not the CHURCH life group activity. Not the BOWLING INVITATION.... just stay at home, to the music, crying, sleeping, wake up? sleep again, crying.... and so on.........)