罪恶的吞噬

我真的快受不了了。。。。。。。
我真的很怕。。。
很怕。。。
我不是有心的。。。
我真的不是有心杀死他的。。。。
现在他的鲜血的味道。。。。
残留在我的手掌。。。
洗不掉。。。。。。。。。

很多人说。。。
杀人凶手都是从杀死小动物开始的。。。

我。。。。。
是个变态。。
我。。。。
是个心理有问题的病人。。。。。。

大家。。。。
快报警然后逮捕我吧。。。。
我不想自首。。
但我真的很痛苦。。。。

他是死不瞑目的那种。。。
还要让我合上他的眼睛才让我安心一点。。。。

对不起。。。对不起。。。对不起。。。。。。。

KILLER

I killed it..
i really din mean to do it.
i thought i just wan to punish it like i did before..
but this time..
accident happens..
he dies.......................

sorry......

2012

一个很难过的一年。。。。
不过并没有 2009 年那么难过。。。
比较起来，
2012 以期说是一个困难的一年。。
倒不如说是一个成长的一年。
不过。。
幸运的是。。。

2012 年。。四月。。。。13号。。。
你跑进我的生活。。。。。
曾经因为某些诱惑打算放弃了你。
但后来却是我哭着走回你的怀抱里。。。


那一天之后。。。
我才发现到。。。
日子一直的过。。
我就更加爱你。。。

轮表面样子还有年龄。。
你并不是我的口味。。。
真的。。
不过。。。。
我这一世人。。。谈了几次恋爱。。。
真正弄到我开心。。。
偶尔也互相发脾气的。。。。
真的。。。就只有你。。。。。。。。

你是我这一生中。。。最好的生日礼物。。
我爱你。。。。

反省。。

为什么我要那么顽皮?。。。。。。。。。。。

突然间。。。很想反口。。。。

以前。。很久的事了。。。
拿过一首日本动漫的结尾曲。。。
填上了自己的词。。
然后歌名就叫做。。

反口曲。。。

就是唱。。某某人答应了某某件事。。
结果不想做了。。。。

现在这首歌在唱着我自己。。。
有点好笑。。。

开口拒绝。。
肯定做不到了。。。
唯有做个不负责任的人。。
闹失踪吧!。。。

后悔

戏里的话永远都是很对的。。。。

“如果你没有后悔过，你就不会成熟。”



我后悔成为你的朋友，
后悔把你当成我最崇拜的学长，
现在想到都恶心。。。。

你是个恶心的东西。
外表，
内涵，
样样都是。。。



就让你们来唱我吧，
这是唯一可以逃脱的方法。。

还不想指名道姓。

WHAT DID I WANT ACTUALLY??

It sings....

KISS ME HARD BEFORE YOU GO,

SUMMERTIME SADNESS......

I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW,

THAT BABY YOU'RE THE BEST..

and what did i want actually?

ELEMENT NIGHT 5.0

ya ya.. it already ends about 1 and a half week and now only i post...
just to comment..

is a happy event actually..... and quite success... I SAY QUITE!...

just...
through this event...
some of my best friend really turn into the worst enemy.... EVER..
and..
nope...
am not going to forgive you ... forever....

GOOD BYE... enemy...

MY BODY DON'T STOP!

SHOOT! NOW MY BODY IS LISTEN TO YOU NOW!!

sorry for making mistakes again.. sob sob...

Forgive me...

Forgive me please... i promise i wont do that again..
i just wan to love you in a serious way...
this time.. really seriously......

sob sob....

Quiet

Quiet...
quiet...
and quiet....

not a good thing though.....................

waiting and in the same time... not to wait.....

What had happen.....

What had happen between us? i don't know...
i just...
don't want the same thing happen on me like last year october....

This time.. i promise i will cut myself and lick my hands with blood if happens.....................................

cause i knew we were right for each other..........

We are the same... and there is still different...

We are the same....
cause we are both pieces....
...
and we are different...
this is why we are more than just friend...
we are a pair...

sorry for not trusting you....
due to my emotional today..
and i don't even know that you just get insulted by your workmate...
sorry..
please forgive me..
i wont do that again...

i love you.... T_T ...
sob sob..
pray for me please... thanks...

Describe 幸福

a very happy day.... =)
even though... i cant buy my working shoe....
haha..
but is ok...

i love you.....=)

i miss you

whole day never see your face...
really makes me uncomfortable.... .sob sob. .T_T ....

but thanks god,
your sms really means that you care me and you love me.....

and i love you too....
kisses.. hehe...

我恋爱了。。。。。

昨晚，
和你睡在一次，
静静地拥抱睡在一次。。。

好笑的是。。。
我们都不是睡得很好。。。
哈哈哈哈。。。。。

但那种幸福，
已经让我们忘了睡不好这回事。。。

我看到你都告诉你的好朋友们关于我。。。
说我主动。。。
我还蛮真的主动下的。。。

不过。。。

你也真是的。。。
要不是因为看到了你的短讯。。。
我根本就不知道原来。。。

你一早见到我。。。
就有种看重我的感觉。。。。

我爱你。。。
（我不想活在灰色。。。。我不想再胡思乱想。。。。。。。。。。。我不想被玩。。。我也不想玩。。。）

我只是要认认真真地。。。和你恋爱。。。。。。

我爱你。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

the first day without you...

the first day without you...
i am kinda panic..
but when watching at your sms and sms-ing with you...
i am kinda exciting....

this is the feeling =)

ok.. gonna sleep.. cause tomorrow am gonna find u....

3rd day date with you.....

honestly... i lie again..... i mean... i am not lying. .. just there is really a sudden change of the emotion about the same thing you do to me.......

first.....
the time you say you really got a feeling towards me.....
second....
the time you say when you see me sad face.. you are more sad....

well.. in the begining... i am happy..
i mean... at least... someone got a feeling and this someone is also that someone that i got a feeling with.....
plus... sharing with someone i love, i like about my emotions..... is happy....

but then.....
now...
i am crying.....
is not because i am angry, sad or anything negative....

i just crying......


and
asking myself....

when is the last time that someone you really love.... say this 2 things together to you? in the same day?? .....

crying
and
answering
...
no......

this time.... real......

If this is not a blog... but instead is a place that let us pray ........

i pray that....

we will going to start soon.......
and never ended......

i really love you......
indeed the time u say u just scare to hurt me......
i am a bit sad actually....

well.. mayb we need time.....
.....
i am not desperate..
but i know...
i trust you and love you....

bless me......... sigh...

so.... this one?? don't screw it if is yes.....

thanks...
is been 2 months....
and..
it seems like my birthday wish... is .... actually comes true...

hmm..
but... still not yet confirmation....

will see the result on 2moro....

dun screw it.. T_T ... sob sob....

the only wish that never comes true........

is already a month... from my birthday...
and my wish still not yet comes true.................................................................................




















faith to be forever alone?

THIS IS THE PART OF ME THAT YOU NEVER GONNA EVER TAKE AWAY FROM ME!

U NOE WHY I LOVE KATY PERRY?

CUZ HER SONG ALWAYS GET ME INSPIRED AND OUT OF PMS.... =)

THANK YOU KATY...
MUAKZ!!
DEAR SUCKERS! AND FUCKERss!! YOU ARE NOT GONNA BREAK MY SOUL~~~~~~~
CUZ DIS IS PART OF ME!!
FUCK YOU!!!! o0o
hehe....

birthday wish

my birthday just ends... at 5hours ago...... (approximately actually)


but...
my birthday wish....
still not yet comes true...........


is it becuz i am faith to be....
a loner?

regretting......

矛盾

很好的例子。。。。。

当你在读书的时候，
你竟然很想要打工。。。。

打着工的时候，
又很想退出继续享受你的大学生活。。。。。

我这种人真的很该死。。。。。。。。。。。。


连续两晚，都梦到妈妈哭。。。。要不然就是爸爸哭。。。。。。

家里。。。。
真的不想要成真。。。。。

还记得去年，
爸爸跟我说，
他没有把希望放在我的身上。。。。
我很冷静地点头。

不想要争，也不想要取什么。。。
就只是希望日子可以继续平凡下去罢了。

过去的，不发生，
都发生了。

原谅，补偿，
要，
不要，
也无所谓。

妈妈说，
我从来没有把‘家’放在心里。
我真的很懒得解释，
或者是辩论你是错的。

我爱我的爸爸，
我爱我的妈妈。
我也爱我的弟弟。

可是，
表面上却做不出来。
在心里，
那默默的爱，
没有人看得出。

我是一个败类。
我的性格就是一个问题。
我的思想就是一堆垃圾。
我的言语是一个牛头不对马嘴。。。。。

这是他们的观念。。。。

我，
不能反驳。
因为，
他们是我的家人。

现在，
就希望，
我们可以过得平平凡凡，
别再有任何风波了。。。。。



（p/s:我很需要一个肩膀。。。。。。。。。。。。。。)

So?

So.....
looks like 2012 is not a good year for me though....
even though i wanted to be a good year desperately.....

however...
live still needs to goes on....

just cry it out and stay alive.....

Schooling starts.... then.... Chinese New Year

and... YEAH!!!!
HERE COMES MY Y2S1....
i am year 2..... OLD.... T_T....

well... is just an usual day in utar...
like my y1 or even foundation year....
just... something changes is...

my dad is having an early retirement....
and
my wira car get stolen.....

HURRAY!....
n
DAMN!


but is ok,
no car... means... i need to stay in a more nerdy life whenever i am in rawang..
no more shoppings .......

and my dad early retirement also have taught me to
use money WISELY!
no more burn or washing money....

and dear dynamics
U SUCKS!
BUT THIS TIME I AM SO GOING TO AIM YOU...
AT WORST...
B-!!!
I SWEAR!!!!

by the way....

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE....=)

HeaRT TiReD (They always don't want to see it)

WHY? WHY EVERYONE CAN SEE THAT I DID MY BEST, BUT NOT MY FAMILY, FAMILY MEMBERS, AND ALSO MY FAMILY FRIENDS?

THEY ONLY CAN SEE THAT I DID MY WORST............

AND THEN SCOLD ME.....

I AM TIRED......

dear MOM,
if you still keep in thinking i am a bad boy who just wants your money? GO AHEAD!

i feel disappoint to this small family........