Restart failed

And I thought I got a new life and I will stop. 

But no. Here I am again. Maybe is my problem or maybe is because my new life is not new at all. 

Just give me one last good Saturday

Ok, first of all, I know posting this kind of stuff here is kinda weird and stupid. 

But still, whoever see this blog post, please please please pray for me that tomorrow and Sunday no need to work. I am desperate need your pray. Thanks . crying

Hope for new life

What I hope that dis is really the starting of the turning point of my life. 

Please let me go smoothly for years. No lay off no super drama please 

PRAY HARDER TRY HARDER CLEAN HARDER

JUST 2 MONTHS. NEW LIFE. PROMISE MYSELF OK?

加油

加油。 你一定行的。
坚持下去吧！
说好最少一个月。

害怕

人，
往往都是在事情就快要发生的那一刻
会害怕越来越多东西


我害怕
无法在十一月之前开始我的社会生活
就算开始了社会生活，
我又害怕我会被困在同一个地方
即使可以不被困在同一个地方
我又害怕会有人想尽办法留下来
就算没有人反对我
我又害怕那个新的地方无法得到我要的东西

祈求谁都好，控制我命运的那家伙，
让我顺顺利利过掉这四个害怕的东西吧。

目前的我更害怕
我下个礼拜会破戒。。。。
不要了，拜托。
乖一点好吗。。。。

Situation

I am into something that when i am not doing it. I need to do it.
But when i am doing it. I regret that i shouldnt do it.

Well the one who got hurt the most is not me. Is him.