Out of CLOSET!

Why most people who out of closet will end up with loneliness............

Why?
why?
and
why.........

i love yesterday

yesterday was a great day.....
is really a moment that we din have for a long long time........

still remember last year.....
you wanted to go home...
and i had stop you...
and we talk...
we chat...
we even laugh...........

yesterday.........
was the first time in this year...
that we did the same thing again.......
there is only 2 of us...
no third party...
forth fifth sixth.. or whatever....

we talk about jokes...
we talk about future...
we talk about gossip......
just like a pillow talk.....
i am very happy for yesterday.......

and i love yesterday.....

anyway...
i love yesterday's weather too.........

my life is so dramatic.....

I love drama.. i love movie..
i love romance genre too....

and... if you notice something.. 80% of the love story.. is.. at start.. one of them.. swear that he or she wont love her or him anymore......
but... time after time..... he or she cant control himself or herself back and continue the love story which should already stop with her or him......

i am one of them...........
my love story is one of the movie or drama.......

last friday......
i keep saying that.. i don't have the feeling of love anymore towards 'her'............
but... last sunday..............
i cant control myself back and fall in love with her back..........

oh my god.
i think...
i should go for psychologist.........

SERIOUSLY......i cant be a lover......

Seriously...... i dun think i can be a good lover.... NO...
is.. i cant be a lover.....
at all.....


Let's flashback to 1 year ago.....
when i look at you..... the first time i saw you.. and the first time i have the feeling towards you...
i am very happy... and excited....
well.. maybe no one knows who are you.....
but is ok...
just be my cute little secret lover.. (by the way.. you are older than me a lot.. i dunno why i call you... cute little....)

i keep do a lot of thing for you.. sacrifice....
among all the boys and girls......
you are the one who get the higher rate of knowing per seconds　(means.. how well do i know you in every second)
i do a lot of things...
whenever you have trouble.....
i try my best to help...
whenever i am in trouble..
i try my best to not to let you know.. cause i don't want to let you worry.....

but now...
1 year later....
maybe is because of....we only met for twice... like that every week... or... just.... some weird reason.....

sorry......
i really...
don't have...
no more...
those feelings toward you.......
in the bad way...
that is...
i don't love you anymore.....
i dunno why....
before.. when being with you...
i am so damn excited...
but now....
when being with you.....
even just in msn....
i was like....
'empty'.......................

i cant be a lover...
single suits me more.....
well...
or... i think i should say....
i am workaholic than you...
even tough i love you is because you are workaholic too...
but..
now...
i love my work.. and i love busy... more than i love you....
until...
i love my work and busy only.. but i dun love you anymore.....
sorry.....
sorry.. for the 'forever and ever' promise.....
sorry..........

anyway...
thanks for make me have a great moment with you.....
bless you.......


I HAD THE LOVE..........