醒了。。。懒了。。。

突然间想打华语。。。。。

原因？。。。。

不知道。。。。。。

想打就打咯。。。。。。。。。。

望着荧幕机反射出来的我的那个样貌，
看着自己的表情。。。。。。

你伤心？
没有。。。。

你生气？
没有。。。。

你失望？
没有。。。。。

我只是累了。。。。。。麻木了。。。。。。。

以前一个我曾经暗恋过的一个人他和我说
：“当很多人都开始对你采取不良的行动时，问题就不是他们了，问题是你。”

换成以前的我，我会很固执的说
"我没有问题！他们才有问题！”

不过。。。。。。。

现在的我，我不会反驳。。。。。也不会说是谁的问题。。。。。

谢谢 siva......
谢谢 sujesha.....
谢谢 agnes.......
谢谢 lcm........
谢谢 wong chan weng...
谢谢 au wai chong
谢谢 sem 4 的其他人。。。。

谢谢 utar 把我 barred 掉，然后给我 sem 4......

谢谢 florence....
谢谢 yoke kuan.....
谢谢 kai fui....
谢谢 siti rihah....
谢谢 soo yee ......
谢谢 edmund............

谢谢 ikano popular 的大家，和ikano popular 的那些 sucks customer.......

你们真的很棒。。。超棒！
因为你们的教导
我学会了看淡所有东西。。。。

为什么他比我 ‘lanjiao' 可是他受到的招待却好过我？

以前的我，会去吵，会去咒骂。。。。。
不过现在的我知道。。。。。
这就是　－－命－－！

face problem 真的是个很严重的东西。。。。。。。
我承认我是丑。。。。。。

你们要怎样，就怎样吧。。。。

我不会吵，我不会去闹。。。。。。
我已经二十岁了。。。。。
要懂得冷静对待一切。。。。。

今年年尾看了--义海豪情-。。。。。。

这部戏就让我看到了所有的现现实实。。。。。。

后来在 glee 里。。发现了一个对白。。。。。

类似这样的 “一个让大家都崇拜的偶像，不代表他有很多知心朋友。”

没错。。。。。
让人讨厌。。。。。
让他吧。。。。。

让人抛弃。。。。
让他吧。。。。。

让人害怕？。。。
让他吧！。。。。。

因为我就不相信！
全世界就因为你们这群讨厌我的人而开始讨厌我！！

我不再是那个吵吵闹闹的无知少年了。。。。。
我是一个等待时机。。。。。
用贱格的手段。。。。。。。。。
让讨厌我的人。。。。。
一个。。。又一个。。。消失的变态狂魔。。。。。

我！
尤俊程！
二十岁！！！
越来越贱格！！！

永远的贱男人！！！！

最后，加上一句。。。。

‘干你！’。。。。

哈哈。。。。。

‘我没有伤心，也没有生气，只是累了。。。。。’

Should be so lucky ACTually

What i look for right now?....
huh?.....

actually.. i got a great life actually......

and what do i hope for?.......

well.. i do hope a lots of thing...
but none of them come.....

tired of fighting.....


but....

enjoying the thing i had right now.....

even though is not what i hope......

at least..
still a thing for you to enjoy compare to those poor people...


should i say...

i am one of the lucky person actually???

inSOMNIA

I DUN CARE!
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MAKE ME INSOMNIA EVERYNIGHT!
NOW I WAN YOU TO BEAR THE TROUBLE THAT I HAD NOW!
THAT IS!!!


.
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...
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.....
......
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BE WITH ME FOREVER AND EVER...................

AM I TAKING THE RIGHT COURSE??

about 39 people ask me :"are you sure you taking the right course?"

when i enter UTAR...


but

now....


there seem a special one... and i like what he said about my life

:"But we can see that he did well in his course right now.."

this is special....

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so..
continue be a chemical engineer student...

WHAT ABOUT YOUR ARTISTIC DREAM??

YOUR TALENT??

nah...

wait till i graduate 1st....
cause i am not young..
i am 20 years old...
if everything change..
i need to restart..
but time wont restart...
we still grow older and older...


BUT
I
STILL
NEED
TO
EMPHASIZE......

I AM ALWAYS ARTSY!!!!!! ><


(a.k.a... artistic... lolz...)

haha...

Take a BREAK.... DIE

TOO MANY THINGS happens.....
TOO MANY ASSIGNMENT...
TOO MANY SYLLABUS.....

but that's ok......
it wont affect me....

just....

TOO MANY TRUTH DISCOVERED....

ok... that's really make me tired...........

doing the wrong expectation is the worst thing that would never happen in my life...
but...
it did...
and i did the wrong expectation...

and now..

i need to bear the sadness...........

if there's a chance for me to die...
i rather go die now.....
instead of facing those dirty truth in front of me..

THAT I WOULD NEVER EXPECTED!!

Buying somebody LIFE....

i am so dissappointed.....
you lied to me.....
i hate it!
you left me quietly.....

I THINK I GET ISOLATED .................... again........

WHY MY LIFE ALWAYS STUCK WITH THE WORD "ISOLATED"!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I HATE MY LIFE!!
I WAN TO GET A NEW LIFE!!!
MY LIFE SUCKS!
AND MEANINGLESS!!!

FUCK YOU! LIFE!

HoPE!

Okay.... so....
no more E.M.O!!!
WAKE UP!! STRONG ME IS BACK!

lolz....

well.. anything just started in few hours ago,
yeah.. my extra chemistry class.....
it gives me hope....
although i hate the stupid class.....

why?

well... thinking back about last night,
is the most struggling night i had ever had.....
i am doing a chemistry for engineers tutorial paper...
and i realize..
THERE ARE MANY QUESTION I DUNNO HOW TO ANSWER....
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I managed to answer all the questions in 3 hours. 20 QUESTION TOTAL, By referring to my slides, books that i borrow from library, dictionary, GOOGLE it...and so on...

and that time, i am so scare, i scare that i cant get even 1 correct answer among the 20 question.
i am worry because the tutorial i am doing, will submit to the lecturer and she will mark our paper and then, the correct answer will be counted as marks for assessment, Which mean, i am so dead! CAUSE I AM STILL DUNNO WHAT AM I DOING ACTUALLY!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i am so scare that time, i am thinking of repeating the subject and failed the subject and repeating the subject and again and again like a routine........

and then, when the class start, and when the lecturer start to discuss about the correct answer ,
and among all 20 question............... i got.......... 14 corrects!

OH MY GOD!
i cant believe it...
i mean i keep predicting that i will have the maximum, MAXIMUM, 10 over 20 correct answer, and dun hope for more than, but in actual? I get 14 corrects!

So, is really motivates me a lot,
i should concentrate a lot, and this is what i've learned.

THE STRONG ME is not gone, is just, he is waiting me to use HIM.
But when i am not using HIM,
THE WEAK ME will let me use it.

I MEAN, WHENEVER YOU ARE DOWN, THERE WILL BE A HOPE IN FRONT OF YOU,
SO FOLLOW THE HOPE, TAKE THE HOPE, LEARN FROM THE HOPE, AND MAKE ANOTHER HOPE AND COME TRUES.

haha....









(p/s: anyway.. thx to PCL and WYW... you guys really part of the reason that motivated me too.. ><><)